On November 2nd,we began another chapter in this fight against metastatic breast cancer. After spending 11 days in the hospital, two surgery's and very weakened lungs, I am now home and trying to recover.Just a few weeks ago I was teaching my Fitness group and running through the woods after class with a friend. Now..I can hardly walk to the car at the doctors office...Wow,that changed fast!
The process is slow, very slow. Each day I spend a few hours getting antibiotics pumped into my system to fight the pneumonia, as well as taking an oral one at home. I had no idea how taxing this process would be on my body. I sleep...alot!
However, today has been my first day in 15 days that I have been able to do some small tasks like cleaning up, laundry, etc. You don't know how much you miss the daily grind until you can no longer participate. So, we will call today a good day!
I still have 11 more of these treatments, scans, x-rays and stitches out. Then the decision of when to begin chemo will be made. Having pleural effusions/ partially collapsed lungs and pneumonia is not how my Doctors will start chemo...and we are fine with that.
I did have a port put in, but I will be honest after going though chemo once before I am struggling very much with this decision. Other than letting it spread I am not sure I have many other choices.
I wish I could change my diet/lifestyle/ stress levels to kick this thing back into NED (No evidence of disease). But as most of you know I have done all that. Which I truly believe has helped me over these past 14 years fighting cancer. Truth be known, it has been 16 years since I found a lump at age 32 and went to the doctor. It was dismissed as a build up of tissue...a simple needle biopsy was all they needed to do. Two years later, I was already stage three.
I am trying hard to listen to everyone who is saying "one day at a time". If getting over this part was the recovery that would be much easier to swallow. I know the next part will be even harder. But I have too much to fight for so I try to wrap my brain around the next steps and ask God for his healing, comfort, peace and protection.
Be strong and of good
be not frightened,
neither be dismayed;
for the Lord your God is
with you whenever you go.