Friday, December 9, 2011

Changing Perspectives

It's been a  while since my last post. In part I have just been busy, but I  have also been working on "Changing Perspectives". I suppose we all reach points in our lives when we have to make some adjustments. This is one of those times. Put quite simply, we are tired!
 I was speaking with a good friend and she said "you guys have not had time to rest or recover from the past 5 years. I have known this, but for some reason it was a "light bulb moment". Although our lives remain full and busy, we are trying to slow down and prioritize.We have recently made a few changes, some easy, some not.
After weighing the pros and cons I decided to discontinue teaching  5k classes through the Parks and Rec. dept. This was not an easy choice. I met some wonderful people and was able to share my love of running with them. I will continue to teach 5k classes on my own and hope to rejoin the community another time. For now, I am very thankful for the ladies I am training.
This next one wasn't actually planned. My laptop crashed so I have been limited to computer time. This gave me the opportunity to realize how much "white noise" I was dealing with. The internet has made it possible to keep in touch and connect with so many people and I love that! With that opportunity also comes maintaining so many relationships which can be a bit overwhelming.However, my blog has been a good outlet and I do plan to continue writing.I had stopped going to the Writers group and really miss that. My plan is to rejoin them in January.
I am still running, but nothing like before. I have struggled with that. The fatigue from this last round of treatment really nailed me. Building back up in all areas has been difficult, but I am feeling less of the fatigue now and running a bit more.
Each year I like to have at least one event that I participate in. We made the decision to cancel the Family and Friends annual Turkey trot this year...another hard choice. Chris and I did get up and run 3.1 miles that day, just by ourselves. I had a surprisingly great run!
Although I may not have run an "official" race this year I am content with conquering the Kayak/Hike trip we did in Hawaii! That was an adventure!
Now that I have my grandson in my life, he too has become a wonderful priority. I have been putting aside one day a week to spend time with him...and we are always open to babysitting :) He is good medicine!
So, here I am still after all these years trying to find the balance between a full, happy life with metastatic cancer and recognizing when to rest and give ourselves permission to take the time to  heal and recover.

5 comments:

Pschall said...

Your strength and passion is admirable. Wishing you all the best as you continue to find that balance between running, resting, and recovering. Keep on keepin’ on, chica!

Maryann said...

I think you have made some wise choices. We have also been "decluttering" our live's the past year, sorting through commitments that were good, better or best, did some eliminating. We felt we were being strectched too thin and not enjoying life. Sounds like you have a good plan. Loving on that grandson definately ranks as one of the best investments of your time, with rewards that can't be measured. Enjoy, enjoy!
Blessings to you

Vicky said...

There is a sense of peace that I feel when I read your words. The balance part is difficult. I sometimes feel if I stop juggling one of the balls then maybe I am letting mbc get the best of me... but that thinking just doesn't serve me well when rest is often what works the best to keep me going :)

I hope you have a blessed holiday season and enjoy the new little guy!

Andrew Sharp said...

I can't relate to the cancer, so I won't even try. But the running, ahhh... love it. Please, keep posting, and God bless...

Drew
http://borrowedfaith.blogspot.com/

Racn4acure said...

It is always good to evaluate what is most important, because we cannot do it all. Thinking of you. Enjoy that new grandson, Grandma! Art

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